As I promised, Chapter 10 will be the last chapter. I have seperated chapter 10 into two parts for your convenience.
Allow me to express that this trial, in its entirety, has been the most emotionally draining experience I’ve ever been through. Yes, it all is very unfortunate. However, I have once again been reminded how critical it is to surround yourself with people "at your ambition level and above." While we may have the best intentions, I don't think it always comes across that way. It can very easily come across as arrogant, wanting to be in control when in reality, you're only trying to mentor and bring light to the minds of those who may be living in darkness. Oprah Winfrey said it best, "If you want your life to be more rewarding, you have to change the way you think."
Good luck to those of you who find it difficult to think beyond a 5 mile radius. Let's begin.
“THE” CONFERENCE CALL...Moving on!
(Part One)
It was on Tuesday January 8, 2008 when we all staged a “Take Over” of “OUTOFSERVICE”. After the show the team (including the host) jumped on a conference call. We were all very pleased with how the show went and once again discussed the details of how we would announce the new addition “Knockout Tuesday” and our new “Theme Song” for the following night scheduled. The host seemed to be somewhat disinterested in being on the call when she asked repulsively, “what is the purpose of having these conference calls, we should just save everything for the show?”. It was explained to her that the purpose of the conference calls is to openly communicate and discuss matters needed to be discussed off air in able to stay on the same page as a team. The team was pretty excited about the up & coming show, but the host seemed to lack excitement and got off the call sooner than the rest of the team.
Before we ended the conference call we all agreed to touch bases via conference call the following day before the show was scheduled to air. On Wednesday January 9, 2008 I sent a message via MySpace to the host at 12:22pm asking if she wanted to jump on a conference call prior to our scheduled show and once again stressed the issue that “IF” Knockout Tuesday was something that she had concerns about then it should be openly discussed in the conference call before going live. When checking my messages at 2pm I noticed that she read my message. Expecting her to reply shortly after noticing that she had read the message I anxiously waited to receive her response in the hopes that we could agree on an appropriate time to schedule the conference in plenty of time before we were scheduled to go live. The other members of the team touched bases with me numerous of times throughout the day to ask what time the conference would take place. Not being able to give them a time for the simple reason that I had not heard back from the host I explained the situation. Please bare with me. Nevertheless, we all decided to jump on the conference call at approximately 7:45pm PST despite not hearing back from the host. A few members freely voiced their opinions about the host acting a little "funny" about the whole ordeal. We all concluded that perhaps she wasn’t too excited about being a team. Afterall, we were 45 minutes away from going live with no topic and no host. Getting extremely nervous we decided to jump online and check her BTR page to see if she had posted a segment. To our surprise she had a topic “Women & Fertility” listed. Please take note that the previous week Sukari and I went into discussing the subject on fertility after King Mac had mentioned sperm not being able to live beyond x amount of days. Funny right? The host briefly asked both Sukari and I to discuss the topic in the near future as a segment however a set date was never agreed upon. At any rate, we jumped online and did our research on the spot so that the two of us could speak more intellegently on the subject.
Although my other efforts failed I made yet another attempt to call the host. At this point we were 30-minutes from going live. I checked my messages on Myspace in the hopes to have received a reply from the host; to my surprise she had sent something @8:21pm and I quote “Hey Titi, What time is the conference?” I was taken a back with the fact that it took her 6 1/2 hours to respond. I immediately picked up the phone to contact her. With the team on my land line I used my cell phone to call the host. When she answered, I asked her to call into the conference number and she promised to do so immediately. After waiting 10-minutes now 20 minutes before we are scheduled to go live we all were still waiting. The team urged me to call her again. This time, she picked up the line very irritated and in fact said that I “woke her up”. Confused, I asked how she could be asleep when not only did I just receive a message from her via MySpace, but I had just spoken to her 10 minutes prior. With what appeared to be a little sarcasm she proceeded to tell me that she had a full time job and that she needed to rest. It was evident that she had no intentions on participating in the conference call so I let it be. Afterall, we were ruffly 15 minutes from going live. The team stayed on the conference call in disbelief. We were all a little confused to say the least. The confusion we all seemed to have in common slowly became clarity in what turned out to be our last show as a 7 member team.
